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January 29th, 2008

12:42 am - Ho Hum So, re-watched Advent Children and it seems no matter how many times that I watch it I see something new every time. Am still upset that Zack didn't get more screen time but that's probably since I sincerely believe that Zack and Cloud were more than friends. I mean the man gave up his life for the kid! Now just need to catch up with my Bleach episodes and I think I'm like three chapters behind on the manga. But my kids are sick and on top of that a couple of my former troopies just got back from Iraq and wanted to get together. It was hard looking at these guys, remembering when they were just young rookies and the look in their eyes now makes me want to weep for their lost innocence. I feel like I let them down, not being there with them. Which is stupid since I'm using my wheelchair more and more so it's not like I could keep up with them. I tell myself that I'm still doing what I can for them by being a shoulder to lean on but when a 21 year old kid asks me if something happens to him if I'll be the one to give the flag to his parents it doesn't seem like enough. So I promise yes and cry in my heart that that day will never come. It would probably be easier if my husband was here to lend me strength but he's still over in Iraq and I can't talk to him about this. I need to be his rock right now because he is trying to make sure that all his guys come home safe and sound. Sometimes I just want to curl up and hide from the world and so I lose myself in the wonderful fantasy world that several people here on IJ create, and enjoy the stories that icedark_elf and ciceqi and others create. I wonder if they realize how much their willingness to share their writing means to someone like me. Actually, reading their works make me want to write some myself but they are so good it makes me realize how bad a lot of my writing is. *sheepish grin* Ahhh well, it's a standard to shoot for if nothing else. Maybe someday I'll actually get there. Ok, think I'm doing whining for now about how pathetic my life is...it's amazing how when you write about something, it doesn't seem as bad as it did before. Current Location: Fort Hood Current Mood: contemplative Tags: rambling, real life

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December 10th, 2007

02:48 pm - Fanfic: Bedside Manner (RenIchi) So here is another little story. I have to thank a dear friend Renjifan for all her help with this, up to and including the title. And if you like (or don't like) maybe comment :). Title - Bedside Manner Author - LadyJ (Dareetel) Beta - Renjifan aka Pinky Pairing - Renji x Ichigo Rating - PG-15 Disclaimer - While I wish I did, I don't own Bleach. Summary - "When will ya get it through yer thick head that ya don’t have to fight this war alone?” ( Read the Story ) Current Location: Fort Hood Current Mood: weird Current Music: Weird Star Trek Music Tags: fanfic, renichi

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11:19 am - Fanfics I realized that I had never actually put any of the stories I said I was going to over here so I figured I better finally do that. For some reason the username (dareetel) I used on LJ wouldn't work over here when I finally got around to getting an account here on IJ but that is just me babbling. Anyway - time to post. Title - In Sickness... Author - Dareetel Pairing - Renji x Ichigo Rating - PG-13 - Language Summary - What happens when Ichigo gets sick? First Story Here... Title - Rain Author - Dareetel Pairing - Renji x Ichigo Rating - NC-17 for smut Summary - He hates the rain. He’s never actually come out and said it but his body language screams it. Smut Follows... Title - Live Happy Author - Dareetel Pairing - Renji x Ichigo Rating - PG-13 - Language, Character Death Disclaimer - While I wish I did, I don't own Bleach. Summary - “When one’s Bankai disappears without permission from it’s master…that means the master’s time of death draws near.” For Those Who Have Finished the Fight...I Miss You Current Location: Home Current Mood: silly Tags: fanfic, renichi

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August 27th, 2007

12:12 pm - First Entry Due to recent changes on LJ, decided to sort of back it up here. That way I don't have to freak out over my writing too much :). So, will probably back up my little stories here shortly. Current Location: Fort Hood Current Mood: amused Tags: life

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